But I decided to use this one as my post title because that is what this blog does for me lately, makes me shake my head. Or maybe it should be SMHS - Shake My Head in Shame.
Why?
I have totally neglected this here blog. And I am mad at myself because I have so much I need/want to write down. For me, for my kid(s)...just to be able to remember clearly. Especially when Altzhiemer's looms so greatly in my family (My mom's uncle, dad, and aunt all have/had some form of it - and seeing it so close scares the hell out of me. But that is another post - like they all are)
I have so much to catch up on, since, uh, my last Avery post was 10months and she is now 15.5 months. It is kind of overwhelming and when I get overwhelmed, I avoid.
So I have decided to make a resolution: stop avoiding. My weight, exercising, cleaning, writing. I'm gonna slap that b*tch right in the face like she just said something about my mama.
In other news, I have 3, yes, that is ONE, TWO, THREE classes left before I am finished school 4 EVA!!! Or unless until I lose my mind and decided to go back for my MBA. For those of you that completed your undergrad in the expected amount of time, at the "appropriate" age, way to go! Because if you thought it was difficult then, trying to balances classes and studying and drinking and partying and dating...It is WAY harder when you have a family, a house, a full time job. But on August 23rd I will be able to say I DID IT! (being that my wonderfully sweet Spanish prof passes my non bi-lingual self. Hola Senorita Baker, just in case you ever read this) I have to say that as relieved as I am to have accomplished this huge goal I have been working towards for 14 years (3 full years the first time around, off and on for 6 years, back to school for realz in 2006 until now) I am feeling weird about it. Not the best way to describe my feelings, I know. I just can't put my finger on it. Yes, a great sense of accomplishment but maybe a little let down or confusion because I have had been focused on this for so long. I don't know. What I do know is that I am so looking forward to spending more time with my girl. And the husband. And being a "normal" family, using that work loosely.
In my spare time (HA!) we have been re-decorating our living room. I do have a post in my drafts that I started and have been adding to as we knock things off our To Do list. I am getting excited as we get closer to it being done and my vision being put into reality. {If you did not know, I started my college education as an Interior Design/Architect major, only to decide that was not what I wanted to do for the rest of my life, but I do thoroughly enjoy it as a "hobby"} My goal was to make our living space more open, light, and functional. We live in a townhome, without a basement or garage so storage is minimal. We are right in the middle so our home only get light in the front of the house and the back. The woman we bought our house from 3 years ago was a 50+ never married lady who had, um, different taste then we do. She liked a lot of dark colors and out dated stuff (can you say brass outlet covers and fireplace doors). After 3 years, I was just plain old tired of living in HER house! It all started with our need/want to replace the wall-to-wall carpet with hardwoods. Praise the Lord, it finally happened after months (years) of patiently(?) waiting. And then it kind of snowballed from there. I'm dying to share it all but I need to save if for the official post. Here are a couple sneak peak photos that I shared on Instagram:
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| Floors getting installed, Avery inspecting. |
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| New chairs, ottoman, and couch covers, honeycomb lamp from HomeGoods, new media table, and hardwood floors!!! |
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| The Husband and my brother working on my built-in bookcases. Avery supervising. |
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| New area rug from Lowes. |
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| Bookcases done! And I am in loooooove!!! |
xoxo
